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~ I love Albert Einstein ~Turkey Day was delightful and delicious; sinful southern food and a fabulous family…what more could anyone ask for?
Unfortunately, my Mother was sick with the stomach flu (she got it from me), but she was able to join us…we just propped her up on the sofa!
Someone special was missing due to work, but a big plate of leftovers and half a pumpkin pie should bring a big smile :-)
I did not blow my diet completely out of the water, and I will be back to my points tomorrow!
And…I still remain the Supreme Goddess of Board Games…WooHooo!!!
My Grandma always said "just push your self away from the table...that's what I do."
My Grandma never weighed more than 10 pounds over her normal weight in her entire life, she never worried about her caloric intake, and she ate traditional greasy sugary southern food all of her life.
I know she believed what she said and her intentions were meant to be helpful and encouraging, but instead they always felt like daggers.
My Mother is the Queen of Calorie Counting! All of my life my Mother has been dieting or planning to diet...she is the classic yo-yo dieter, always trying to lose 10-40 pounds.
My Mother is not judgmental and she loves unconditionally, both of which every child needs and requires, I just wish she would have known what we know now...healthy body image and role models are critical, food is not a reward, and you can love your children and still be tough with them.
I blame no one for my weight…I was not abused or used, I was not picked on or bullied, and no one forced those Reese’s cups down my throat.
Trust me, every overweight person knows every possible insult, dig and jab, and your attempts at humor are neither original nor funny...it is just your mean mouth spouting sophomoric shit!
I write this more for others than for myself, because I am tougher than most and I can hold my own with anyone, and also I do not participate in self-deprecating humor about my weight…if I make a joke of myself then I would have to tolerate the jokes others might make at my expense.
Food is an addiction, but unlike every other addiction you cannot live without food…you do not NEED alcohol, heroin, cocaine, prescription narcotics or marijuana to live, but you do NEED food...so, let’s be rational, food is the hardest addiction to conquer; just ask any anorexic, bulimic, or overweight person....not an excuse, just common sense.
Eating is an emotional and social addiction, it is accepted anywhere and everywhere (I wonder if doing a line of coke at the Thanksgiving dinner table would be appropriate...), and if you do not understand this, then you haven’t been paying attention to the world around you.
I know how to love and be loved in return, I have an incredible family and fabulous friends, I have someone who looks at me like I am the most beautiful woman in the world and makes me smile until my cheeks hurt, and I was blessed with an infinite supply of confidence and self-esteem...does it really matter that I am not the perfect Barbie Doll?
I am quite sure and completely content knowing I will always have two digits in my dress size; being a size 2 or 4 is not even remotely a goal, because I believe women are more beautiful when they have curves and at 5’7 I would be a bag of bones if I were that skinny.
So, if you see me or talk to me while I am trying to become a healthier version of myself…wish me well :-)
Words are everything, whether they are set to music or thought, but peaceful silence should also be appreciated and enjoyed.
Real love and friendship is shown not spoken, as they say “actions speak louder than words.”
Getting wrapped up in the “ideal” is ok for awhile, but living in the “reality” is the only way to survive.
…I am either full of wisdom or I am full of shit.
Oooooo...it's Friday the 13th!
I mock broken mirrors, and there silly seven years of bad luck.
I happily lollygag under ladders.
I snicker at spilled salt...that's right I said snicker.
I step on cracks, because my Mama is marvelous and this myth is whack.
Superstitions are for old yentas, school children, and Benny Hinn followers.
Ok...I have been going back and forth about how much I should share or not share and I have finally decided I should share! The last time I had success for a long period of time I was completely open and everyone I knew was super fantastically supportive.
I officially started the Weight Watchers program on Tuesday November 3, and now I live, eat and breathe "POINTS!"
My first week has been completed, and when I weighed in at my meeting I was the biggest loser...I lost 2.89% of my total body weight in just 7 days!
When asked what I did to have such a great first week...all I could say was I followed the program, ate all of my points, and ate every 3 hours. I did not exercise, I did not starve myself, and I did not have any grand expectations...I just wanted there to be less of me than when I started!
Awesome first week...even though these results will not be typical every week it sure as hell feels pretty damn sweet!
Week 2 started today :-)
Watching children eat ice cream.
Looking into the eyes of someone you know so well, and being able to communicate without saying a word.
Reading a friend’s comments, tweets or emails, and being able to hear their voice as you read each word.
Dexter, The Dish, and Glee!
Any food that has 3 points or less, especially non-fat frozen yogurt and sugar-free pudding.
Water.
Seeing my favorite smile everyday.
A cool and dark room to sleep in.
Being turned on by doing something for someone else.
The button bursting pride of watching my niece do hair.
We don’t want to venture out of our comfort zones; it is easier to live in the same place, work at the same job, and “love” the same person, no matter how dull and unfulfilled it, or all of it may be.
I know I can and have underestimated myself and I know other people underestimate me, and because I know this means I also know I want to change how I live my life.
I want to shake things up and rock my world, because underestimating myself makes me feel shitty and exhausted.
I am not lacking in courage or confidence, but I can be too easy going and apathetic for my own good, which all leads to being bored…boredom, especially self created boredom, really does suck!
This is why I am going to go back to school, I am going to learn a new language, I am going to stick to a diet, I am going to live somewhere totally different than Florida, and I am going to live my life the way it always should be lived…full of love, laughter, and a big old heaping amount of pixie dust!
Recent moments of living life with a whole lot of laughter...
Amy, Jen, Ashley and I went to watch Eric entertain tourists at Margaritaville, and to see how many 'ritas we could try from their extensive margarita menu, between Amy and I we tried more than half...Ole'!
Having brunch with Renee and Christy at The Drunken Monkey...there is nothing like spending time with your girls!
"Complicated" and I on the prowl for a BK Lounge at almost 2am, watching SNL on the DVR, and Sunday morning smiles.
Allie and I taking "Dolly" out for a topless spin on a picture perfect Sunday...we sang our hearts out as we went to
Kobe Restaurant with the family to celebrate Allie's 19th Birthday...I was 19 when I witnessed her take her first breath and now she is that same age...she is beautiful, sweet, funny, and I love her with my entire heart!
Things I am hoping to accomplish over the next few months, and hoping to do it all with my normal easy going style while keeping my sense of humor in tact...
Purge the shit I don't need, pack the stuff I want, and then MOVE...I will keep wishing for it to be far far away!
I want to make some time to see my Dad in
Figure out the plan for becoming a full time student, and although I don't know what I want to be when I grow up, I do know I would like to minor in Spanish...being bilingual will be a big bonus for whatever career I choose, and a friend once told me that there is nothing quite as beautiful as being able to understand poetry and music in Spanish, it is a romance language after all.
Oh yeah…And...Start another damn DIET!
I would like this to be the last time I have to start from scratch...I do know that it’s a way of life and I am the most knowledgeable person about what to do...just gotta get my ass in gear! Anyone want to throw my on a deserted island for a year...hey, it is one way to make sure you don't eat! Ha!
